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Well, I wouldn't do that anyway. I got a couple of scraps. I got scraps saved of my own that I'm fine there, right? So, I wouldn't quite exactly do that. I'm just glad I'm bearing this alone because I used to have the issue of my bigger brother and how we're going to manage things after dad's gone. Now at least I have that control of it. I always had that worry of dealing with him. Quite frankly, his death was a blessing to me. It's just like that, like a switch was hit. It squashed 10,000 worries for me. I never would have thought that his dying would help, because I just never saw that happening. Not at all. That was far beyond any of my imagination. I never thought he would die first. Or I would have put it in the equation. I just never did, because I just figured, you know, the kids usually survive for a while. If anything, we would figure of our parents. So no, when he pulled that stunt and dropped dead, I never would have, just never saw it. Didn't even see it. But I was secretly relieved. I can't say so around his support system, but I definitely felt relieved.