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All right. Well, we're talking about your dinner plans. And of course I didn't want to mishmash this one in particular just because Today will kind of be my last chance to talk about that stuff right like next year next week yeah, next week next year next week will be obsessed on next year and Obsessed on the new year coming up so it'll be the new obsession I actually have a reason to forget all of next weekend the 26th of December is always well it used to be mad tough it's not as tough now but I definitely do feel a little something because December 26 05 was when my mom passed away and so I always remember that day it's easy to remember because it was pretty much right after Christmas. In fact, right on Christmas Day, we had a huge argument and mom was just trying to quell the argument. It was between dad and my brother. My dad wanted my brother to be serious in keeping a vigil for mom and paying attention to her affairs because she's arrived at a very tough moment. She might die on us any any moment and my brother wasn't there for that I mean my dad will ruin a Christmas dinner like that that's what he did and they were both shouting back and forth because my brother was trying to eat and my dad's talking all this stuff in his ear and so mom had said look just let the mother enjoy his GD dinner it's like the guy came here for dinner and you want to talk you want to make an acceptance speech it's like how about hold that off there'll be plenty of chances to do that later let the guy have a damn Christmas and so then the and so she barely squashed that and then the following morning she passed she had bone cancer so she was you know a hacking and a coffin and just really not doing very well in fact when she had passed that following morning I didn't cry I never cry with someone guys what's the point of that it doesn't bring them back just because you cry but I didn't in that particular instance because I was honestly relieved she was suffering bad I was kind of sort of glad it was over and I had sort of just hope that probably now she's finally not in pain So that's how I had felt at that time. My dad was kind of carrying on and then so was my brother. So they were more the emotional wearers where I just didn't want her to suffer anymore. So that's what that was. So yeah, the 26th of December is pretty much ingrained in me every year. yeah it was on a Monday morning in 05 so because I was just wanting to go to sleep I just finished reading a couple of things on the computer and I was waiting they just wanted to go to sleep and just as I started to fall asleep my dad made a tremendous noise and I knew right away what it was and I I had instantly snapped to fully alert from just one corner of me kind of falling, kind of still, kind of in dream mode and then another part of me, this is it, you better wake up and I knew exactly what it was because I knew that I don't carry on like that but if I hear dad carrying on like that I knew exactly what that was so all right let's see what are we going to do yeah we still got okay yeah of course that way I can keep in sync with everybody else that's why I do that anyone else that would like to check in come now please